Recently, I was interviewing for a life changing job. Very big position, mucho dinero amigos, and way more responsibilities than my current position. I interviewed for a grand total of 7 hours (going back 2X) and met 6 different people. I was put through the ringer and loved every second of it because by the end, I felt like I was born to do it. And I ALMOST….was. They called on Friday to check my references and I spent the weekend fantasizing about my new life. I wrote my current supervisor a thank you note for agreeing to give me a reference (who was none too happy I was leaving), gave it to him... and by Monday morning there had been a "change of heart" and I was definitely, totally, completely and utterly NOT getting this job.
So that sucked. For about 2 hours I shuffled along Madison Ave, head down, completely lost. And then I snapped out of it. Because here’s the thing...
At the very beginning of this year, I sat down for dinner with my amazing man in a little Mexican restaurant and we talked about our goals for the year. My number 1 goal for 2011 was to create a small business online that generates passive income. Fast forward to two weeks ago; I had seriously ramped up my efforts for this project and was making serious headway when this new position popped up in all of its glory. Even though I became progressively more attracted to the position as the interview process went on, somewhere along the path of I’ll-be-good-at-this-no-I-wont-yes-I-will, I had some insights that were pretty powerful. I knew, deep down that if I didn’t get it, it would be because the "universe" knew the position wasn’t the best utilization of my talents and it really wanted me to focus on my small biz idea. I knew this. The second I heard that I wasn’t getting the job, a little voice in the back of my head said “I told you so”. And NOT in a you’re-not-good-enough-for-this way (not at all- I have no doubt that I would have kicked total tush) but in a This is not where you are supposed to be going right now and if it means I have to deny you something you really want and make you feel ultra stupid and embarrassed, then that’s what I’ll do. Because I have other plans for you. Love, The Universe.
Here's how this relates to IntenSati. The practice of IntenSati can mean different things but the two most important things that it has done for me has been that it has encouraged me 1. to listen to my intuition and 2. to always focus on that freaking silver lining no matter what the situation. For me IntenSati is about choosing a state of mind or attitude that supports my happiness and health. Seeing this possibly difficult disappointment as a gift is a perfect example of how I'm now able to see the positive side of once shi**y situations because of this practice.
Maybe it will do the same for you? Try it out! This month IntenSati with JillyP!